Little ol Election rant

Oh my goddess! I thought I’d be happy when the elections were over but now I kind of wish I would just see all the campaigns again…
Now that it’s over, all I see now is everybody getting pissed off on who won, who lost, what got Yes and what got No.
People wanted people to vote, but now they are pissed off over the results. This is a start… Be fucking happy people fucking voted! Sorry they didn’t all share Your view of things…
Over the people, that can’t be helped much… People are set in their ways and are going to vote Democrat or Republican. Period.
As far as the judges, I’m not even going to lie, I left some blank… I couldn’t remember who everybody exactly was… and I feel if I’m going to vote, I should at least know who and/or what I am voting for… I would rather make an informed decision or no decision rather than a uninformed decision…
Now on to the Amendments. Those are the main reason I voted yesterday. I did my research as best as I could but with all the conflicting views it is still very hard to make a decision, but I did my research and I made the decision that felt best to me. And hopefully others did the same… Unfortunately, the majority of the amendments are written to confuse people and confuse people is exactly what they do and is exactly what many of them succeeded in doing. The positive thing about the amendments is if enough people are for or against something, it can go on the ballot for the next time general elections are up. So if your decision is not the same as what happened, do more research, voice your opinion and protest, and hope for another chance.
Thank you for hearing me out, feel free to leave a comment below as long as you can be civil, respectful, and not call anyone any names whatsoever. Everyone have a great day!


Our past does defines our future…


We have all heard it. Hell, we may have even said it a time or two as a platitude to someone. But:

“That’s bullshit right there!”

Come on, admit it…you KNOW I am right. Of course our past defines our future!!

The things we have experienced and the various people that float through our lives leave marks.
Some leave soft, ooey, gooey footprints.
Some leave big huge gashes.
Either way, the memory of each is always there.

Somewhere in the deep abyss of our gray matter, it is there. And whether we seek out a certain kind of person or event or simply encounter them, how we proceed is fueled by our past. Some of us proceed with caution and some of us jump into the deep end with abandon.

But come on… admit it… own it…

You know I am right…

Just an Important Memory…

Five years ago today is a day worth remembering and mentioning, at least to me. Five years ago, PHCC (now known as PHSC) was Oktoberfest at the college, but it was also the first time my Best Friend went as their true selves in public. It was both a scary and proud day for them. I was there for moral support (and backup), but neither was needed as they were accepted and had a good day. 🙂
P.S. Also our first picture together, back before we knew our future…

So, I’m a liberal…

I wish I had written this – it’s just about perfect…
“I didn’t write these words but they certainly apply to me.

“I’ve always been a liberal, but that doesn’t mean what a lot of you apparently think it does.
Let’s break it down, shall we? Because quite frankly, I’m getting a little tired of being told what I believe and what I stand for. Spoiler alert: Not every liberal is the same, though the majority of liberals I know think along roughly these same lines:

1. I believe a country should take care of its weakest members. A country cannot call itself civilized when its children, disabled, sick, and elderly are neglected. Period.

2. I believe healthcare is a right, not a privilege. Somehow that’s interpreted as “I believe Obamacare is the end-all, be-all.” This is not the case. I’m fully aware that the ACA has problems, that a national healthcare system would require everyone to chip in, and that it’s impossible to create one that is devoid of flaws, but I have yet to hear an argument against it that makes “let people die because they can’t afford healthcare” a better alternative. I believe healthcare should be far cheaper than it is, and that everyone should have access to it. And no, I’m not opposed to paying higher taxes in the name of making that happen.

3. I believe education should be affordable and accessible to everyone. It doesn’t necessarily have to be free (though it works in other countries so I’m mystified as to why it can’t work in the US), but at the end of the day, there is no excuse for students graduating college saddled with five- or six-figure debt.

4. I don’t believe your money should be taken from you and given to people who don’t want to work. I have literally never encountered anyone who believes this. Ever. I just have a massive moral problem with a society where a handful of people can possess the majority of the wealth while there are people literally starving to death, freezing to death, or dying because they can’t afford to go to the doctor. Fair wages, lower housing costs, universal healthcare, affordable education, and the wealthy actually paying their share would go a long way toward alleviating this. Somehow believing that makes me a communist.

5. I don’t throw around “I’m willing to pay higher taxes” lightly. If I’m suggesting something that involves paying more, well, it’s because I’m fine with paying my share as long as it’s actually going to something besides lining corporate pockets or bombing other countries while Americans die without healthcare.

6. I believe companies should be required to pay their employees a decent, livable wage. Somehow this is always interpreted as me wanting burger flippers to be able to afford a penthouse apartment and a Mercedes. What it actually means is that no one should have to work three full-time jobs just to keep their head above water. Restaurant servers should not have to rely on tips, multibillion-dollar companies should not have employees on food stamps, workers shouldn’t have to work themselves into the ground just to barely make ends meet, and minimum wage should be enough for someone to work 40 hours and live.

7. I am not anti-Christian. I have no desire to stop Christians from being Christians, to close churches, to ban the Bible, to forbid prayer in school, etc. (BTW, prayer in school is NOT illegal; *compulsory* prayer in school is – and should be – illegal). All I ask is that Christians recognize *my* right to live according to *my* beliefs. When I get pissed off that a politician is trying to legislate Scripture into law, I’m not “offended by Christianity” — I’m offended that you’re trying to force me to live by your religion’s rules. You know how you get really upset at the thought of Muslims imposing Sharia law on you? That’s how I feel about Christians trying to impose biblical law on me. Be a Christian. Do your thing. Just don’t force it on me or mine.

8. I don’t believe LGBT people should have more rights than you. I just believe they should have the *same* rights as you.

9. I don’t believe illegal immigrants should come to America and have the world at their feet, especially since THIS ISN’T WHAT THEY DO (spoiler: undocumented immigrants are ineligible for all those programs they’re supposed to be abusing, and if they’re “stealing” your job it’s because your employer is hiring illegally). I’m not opposed to deporting people who are here illegally, but I believe there are far more humane ways to handle undocumented immigration than our current practices (i.e., detaining children, splitting up families, ending DACA, etc).

10. I don’t believe the government should regulate everything, but since greed is such a driving force in our country, we NEED regulations to prevent cut corners, environmental destruction, tainted food/water, unsafe materials in consumable goods or medical equipment, etc. It’s not that I want the government’s hands in everything — I just don’t trust people trying to make money to ensure that their products/practices/etc. are actually SAFE. Is the government devoid of shadiness? Of course not. But with those regulations in place, consumers have recourse if they’re harmed and companies are liable for medical bills, environmental cleanup, etc. Just kind of seems like common sense when the alternative to government regulation is letting companies bring their bottom line into the equation.

11. I believe our current administration is fascist. Not because I dislike them or because I can’t get over an election, but because I’ve spent too many years reading and learning about the Third Reich to miss the similarities. Not because any administration I dislike must be Nazis, but because things are actually mirroring authoritarian and fascist regimes of the past.

12. I believe the systemic racism and misogyny in our society is much worse than many people think, and desperately needs to be addressed. Which means those with privilege — white, straight, male, economic, etc. — need to start listening, even if you don’t like what you’re hearing, so we can start dismantling everything that’s causing people to be marginalized.

13. I am not interested in coming after your blessed guns, nor is anyone serving in government. What I am interested in is sensible policies, including background checks, that just MIGHT save one person’s, perhaps a toddler’s, life by the hand of someone who should not have a gun. (Got another opinion? Put it on your page, not mine).

14. I believe in so-called political correctness. I prefer to think it’s social politeness. If I call you Chuck and you say you prefer to be called Charles I’ll call you Charles. It’s the polite thing to do. Not because everyone is a delicate snowflake, but because as Maya Angelou put it, when we know better, we do better. When someone tells you that a term or phrase is more accurate/less hurtful than the one you’re using, you now know better. So why not do better? How does it hurt you to NOT hurt another person?

15. I believe in funding sustainable energy, including offering education to people currently working in coal or oil so they can change jobs. There are too many sustainable options available for us to continue with coal and oil. Sorry, billionaires. Maybe try investing in something else.

16. I believe that women should not be treated as a separate class of human. They should be paid the same as men who do the same work, should have the same rights as men and should be free from abuse. Why on earth shouldn’t they be?

I think that about covers it. Bottom line is that I’m a liberal because I think we should take care of each other. That doesn’t mean you should work 80 hours a week so your lazy neighbor can get all your money. It just means I don’t believe there is any scenario in which preventable suffering is an acceptable outcome as long as money is saved.
So, I’m a liberal.” – Written by Larry Allen

Away from Keyboard collection by Patricia Eddy.

Want to read an amazing series by an equally amazing author? Check out Patricia Eddy’s Away from Keyboard collection. Breaking His Code and In Her Sights are both on sale for $0.99 until Saturday. And On His Six (released today!) will be $0.99 until Saturday as well. After that, it’ll go up to $2.99 for 3-5 days, then hit its full price of $5.99.

Breaking His Code:

In Her Sights:

On His Six:

It’s been one year…

It’s been a year since my Twiggy was taken from us. A whole frickin’ year. Thankfully she is in the care of an amazing Foster family and we get to see her every week, but one day a week for some hours just isn’t enough. I miss my baby girl. We have done almost everything in the case plan. We went and passed parenting classes, did the evaluations they wanted us to do, I’m on medication and it’s managed. We both now have “verifiable income” (L had VA disability benefits, and I have two jobs now). The only thing we are having issues on is a place to live. Because of a personal issue, we have to find a private renter (if you can help, please message me). I am trying to get my credit higher so perhaps we could get a loan and just buy a place, but that takes time.
I know a lot of crap has been going on, on top of us loosing Twiggy, but I also have been trying to post the positive. I’ve been trying to remain positive, but sometimes it is so damn hard. I’m not a strong person, I feel like a failure and I’m always ready to crumble but because of Luna, I remain and keep going. It’s all I can do right now. One step at a time, one day at a time. Keep Moving Forward…
Below is the last picture I took of her in our care and the most recent visit.

Why I keep going…

Someone just asked me how do I keep going and keep being strong with everything that has been going on the past twoish years? They said they wouldn’t be able to do it and they would have given up a long long time ago. They told me I was brave and strong and an amazing person.

I told them no I’m not. I’m not amazing or strong or brave. I’m terrified, depressed and weak but I have to keep going. I have to keep going for my daughter. She is why I started back on medication even though I have to go through tons of different kinds before I can find the right one. She is why I said screw trying to get disability even though I need it and just decided to go get a full-time job, regardless of my mental health. She is why I’m willing to drive a car with bad brakes to a job an hour away.. She is why I’m doing this; because of my daughter. My Twiggy is why I have to put on a brave face. I have to be pretend to be strong. I have to pretend that I am amazing because she is my world and I need my world back. If it wasn’t for her, I very well may have given up a long time ago. I know this probably sounds bad because you’re all probably thinking “Oh you have your partner, your stepson, and your friends…” but you know what? That’s how depression works, the things that should be able to keep you going aren’t always the things that keep you going… Sometimes it’s just one thing and my one thing right now is my Twiggy. Luna is my spiritual life support.